16 January 2009

world spins madly on

Things have been gray here. We experienced a tragic loss, and I had to fall off the face of the earth for a little while to figure out how to deal. This will sound silly but I am serious when I say I appreciated your phone calls that I didn't answer, your e-mails that I didn't reply to, and your invitations that I didn't accept. Now that I am starting to rejoin reality, I feel lucky to have so much catching up to do.

I woke up feeling optimistic today. As I wandered around getting ready for the day, I thought, "You know what, I could really use a warm, sunny day sometime soon. Maybe today is my day."

And then the universe had a good chuckle, and I stepped out into this.


So in terms of the weather, perhaps today is not my day. But in other ways the sky is starting to clear, and all the good things in life are becoming a little more obvious.

Hope you're enjoying the good things today too.

14 comments:

Chelsea said...

I can only assume what your loss is and I'm so sorry for you guys. I hope tomorrow is sunny. On the bright side (pun intended :D) today isn't as gray as yesterday. The snow makes it so much lighter now.

Hope you're doing well...

Tara said...

I love you, friend. I am glad that things are a little bit brighter today. I'm here for you if you need me.

Crystal said...

I don't know what your loss is, but I'm happy to hear things are looking up. I'm always amazed at how terrible things seem, there always comes a day when life seems bearable again.

Anonymous said...

I'm sorry that you've been going through a "tough time" (for lack of better terminology on my part). I'm sorry that I haven't been checking up on you like I used to! *grin* If you need anything let us know.

--> Insert funny joke or uplifting comment here. My brain is failing me. My sincerest apologies.

Annie and Heidi said...

Love ya my friend! I should have been an unanswered phone call, but instead I went with the unanswered email... I have been thinking of you though!

Amber said...

Glad to see things are brighter for you. I'll start praying for some sunny days for Kansas too :)
Take care of you.

Kim said...

You've always struck me as a very strong person so I know that while this is hard you'll find sunny times even on the snowy days. Good luck :)

Melissa said...

love you, lex! you are a beautiful writer--even when times are tough I love reading your stuff. thanks for sharing.

Heidi said...

sometimes falling off the face of the earth is the only way and i'm glad that you didn't apologize for it. i can't begin to understand what you're experiencing, but our thoughts and prayers are with you and shay.

Tamarynn Leigh said...

I am so sorry to hear of your loss. You are a sweetheart and I will definitely be hoping and praying for brighter tomorrows!

Lisa Johnson said...

Better late than never. I agree with the comment above that stated "sometimes falling off the face of the earth is the only way". Take your time with what you are going through. Don't let anyone make you feel bad for not "moving on" or "getting over it" please take it at your own pace and make sure to take care of yourself. I love you and I'm always here for you!

Holly said...

Sorry to hear about your hard times, Alexis. We have been thinking about you both a lot lately. I don't understand why things happen sometimes, but know that your in our thoughts and prayers.

Natalie said...

Hang in there...there's always a brighter tomorrow!

Breona said...

Lex. I am catching up on your blog and you are indeed a great writer. I hadn't checked up in a while due to the lack of posts lately. Now I know. Sorry to hear that things were a bit rough for you.
I'm glad you are back and at it. Thanks for your comments on my blog, I love to hear from you. May the best be ahead.